Lets just skip ahead to October General Conference of 2012 shall we. So at that point I was still undecided about a mission. When they made the announcement, like everyone else I got my answer that I was supposed to go. Well the Lord can be a funny guy sometimes. It just so happened that some guy swept me off my feet and at that point the mission thing became so hard to figure out. Was I supposed to get married or go on a mission I just didn't know! Well after Christmas break both this boy and I decided that a mission was the direction I needed to go! I received confirmation for the lord that it was the right road to take. I was all set to go and was in my stake president interview when out of the blue the words came out of his mouth, "right now is not the time for you to serve a mission". WHAT?!?!?! I was baffled and so confused, how could this be? I had received revelation I was supposed to go on a mission that was my calling. However, I knew in my heart that what the stake president was saying was right! I needed to go on living my life as I normally would and wait a season. So I scrabbled and signed up for all my classes and found some housing to live in! The Lord was right I needed to go back to school! I had one of the most amazing semesters of my life and met some life changing friends and people! needless to say I still was praying about a mission! Finally it came down to making a decision. "Funny I was actually dating someone at the time" However, I was getting stressed out and wasn't feeling right about going on a mission anymore! So I decided to go back to school. I even had some thoughts about praying about it again and the same thing the answer was no! So I eventually came to the realization that I wasn't ever going to be serving a mission and I accepted the fact that I was meant to stay here and my mission was here! I started planning for future arrangements to stay up at school over the winter semester and work! Well now here we are 5 weeks before the end of the semester and yet again ALL my plans are changing! Nothing seemed to be working out everything was falling apart so in desperation I fell on my knees asking for help on what to do! Finally the answer came to me! Mckinzie STOP. Don't worry about these problems anymore! It is time! Time for you to resubmit your mission papers! Holy Cow was it real? YES it was I have never been so sure about anything before and this time, it really does feel right! I have no hesitations , not distractions, no boys haha just a sure knowledge of my heavenly fathers love for me and that finally it is my turn to go and serve the Lord and gather his sheep for him! I know and have such a testimony of patients and the Lords timing! He knows whats best for us! We just need to submit to his will! Sometimes he leads us down different roads because there is something we need to learn, but in the end we will always end up on the correct road!
P.S. My mission call should be coming in a few weeks! Its a secret though only a few people know and only my Mom knows out of everyone in my family!! haha SURPRISE!!
